Yesterday i had a tiff with my Manager regarding abt some supplier delivery issue. She say that i'm just too nice to the supplier liao. I should have been tough to demand from the supplier. Personally i feel that i became nice ever since i've become a designer. Last time when i was doing sales, i was more tough on my stand and for the benefit of the company.

I began to reflect on this change in me. Is it because of my position or because of my sis's death? Becos i was in sales before her death, i was very tough then. Ever since her death, i began to be contented of my life. Taking things easy and forgiving. Now at this pt of time, i began to think back. Is this holding me back as to strive in my work?

After the meeting with my manager and colleagues, i began to understand that i should be what i am now. As for i treasure my loved ones, so i need to balance them up. If i wan to achieve big in my work, i will have to sacrifice my personal life and spend less time on my loved ones. If i were to spend more time on my loved ones then my work have to be stable and minor achievement. In life, you cannot have the best of both world. It's up to what you choose in life. So at this pt of time, i choose my loved ones upon anything in life. I will try my best to strive as much in my work. Maybe a 60% on loved 0nes and 40% on work.

After i sort out this feeling and belief, i got my ultimate goal in life. And also thanks to SEVEN, her blog make me ponder abt this issue. ALL THE BEST TO MYSELF!!!